Monday, October 26, 2015

Random Thoughts

NaNo. It's coming closer, I'm getting more nervous about it, and because of my nerves, I'm creating more self-doubt/esteem issues. My husband is very supportive, and has helped me to calm down - at least for so far today. He has also posited that perhaps I'm getting the self-doubt because I am too close to the subject I chose to write about - in that I chose to write about a specific roleplaying character of mine that it in a current game (not run by me) and an NPC. As a result, I am now rethinking what I might write, and may work more on a secondary option this week (as something to occupy myself, primarily) and see what I want to do come Samhain.

I've finished the first season of Diabolik Lovers, and all that's out for the second season (Diabolik Lovers, More Blood), and I'm still not sure what to make of it. It's at least held my interest, despite short episodes, if nothing else. I wish the episodes were longer though (season one is 15 minutes, season two is 13 minutes...take out time for openings and endings, and that makes for some short episodes!), like the typical 20 minutes, and that they were the typical length for a season (about 24-26 episodes). I did learn that it's based off a series of PSP games, and not a manga as I had previously thought. Now I'm tempted to get an emulator to play them, lol. So apparently, I like the anime, if I must make a conclusion.

I still haven't gotten past the first episode of Dance with Devils yet. I tried to a little bit yesterday, but wasn't really  up for it, so I put the kibosh on it and will try it at a later time.

On a whim, I decided to check into when the next Dark Parables game would be released. I checked Blue Tea Games' Facebook page as opposed to their webpage (since that almost never updates) and found out, via comments on some of their more recent posts, that Dark Parables was now being done by Eipix - checking Wikipedia revealed that they've been in charge of the series since the 8th installment. I haven't played the series since the 5th installment, (but have all 9 of the current installments, and a 10th is to be released next month) so I can't really say how well or how poorly Eipix has done with the franchise.

Played a few hours of World of Warcraft today, and actually managed to get all of my Tanaan dailies done for once. Whilst killing rares, my husband got a mount drop from one, and he earned Draenor Pathfinder, so he is now able to fly in Draenor. I'm at 59.5% of the way to what I need with Order of the Awakened, and 66.4% with Hand of the Prophet. I had to check wowhead for those stats, so while I am there, I am checking to see what else I can do to get those reps up - and it looks like only the dailies, according to the guides. So apparently, it's gonna be a while yet. I could buy a few Medallion of the Legion, but I suck at making money, and at present only have 2k and change, when the medallions are anywhere from 4-6k on the auction house.

Gamed briefly last week, on a friend's birthday. but it wasn't a long session, and we largely only half half the troupe, and my leg started cramping up. I need to get in some time in with the other half of the troupe to cover the same amount of time. Due to scheduling, however, we wont be doing that game this week (Changeling). Salem is tentatively scheduled for Thursday, pending a player's availability (she had to cancel last week to focus on schoolwork, so we didn't play Salem at all). Haven't done the Ghouls game in a while, so am hoping to do that again soon, pending the other player's availability and relative health.

Supposed to do a Samhain ritual with friends this weekend as well. We were originally talking possibly later in the evening on Samhain itself, then switched it to the night before, and then just recently had to switch it to the day after. Halloween has always been more of a commercial holiday to me, but over time I've come to associate it with ancestor worship...I think partly because it's so close to the Day of the Dead. In any case, I want to try and do something ancestor just feels appropriate to me. So I'm going to look through my copy of The Might Dead by Christopher Penczak and see if there's any guided meditation suggestions or rituals in there that might be appropriate.

And with that I end this post. It's taken longer to write than intended (damn interruptions!).

Friday, October 23, 2015


So tonight I checked out yWriter5 and Scrivener a little bit. both seem very confusing to me. I just don't get it. Wouldn't it be, you know...helpful or something to have a wizard or tutorial to walk you through how to use your program? there's a wiki for yWriter5, and I know there's books out there for Scrivener. But it that hard to include a freaking tutorial?

Every other program in the world seems to have one. Granted, I may just be lazy and not want to learn a new program right now (I feel time crunched).

So I'm thinking I'll stick with Google Docs and write there, splitting my chapters up into separate docs. It just seems easier, ya know?

Of course, my mind's been flooding with other questions too, like...

  • Should I write under a pen name, or my real name?
    • Which would look better on a book cover, pen name or real name?
    • What would my pen name even be?
  • How long is a chapter, really?
  • Is anyone going to want to read this when I'm done?
    • What if it's tripe?
    • What if my head words don't translate well into word words?
And other assorted things that I can't think of right now, because I'm still frazzled from my call to the cable company about my internet being down. This woman was so freaking stupid, and she was constantly interrupting!

Thursday, October 22, 2015

NaNo Progress

Finally settled on an idea to write on for NaNoWriMo. The way I see it, I'll probably have more fun writing this particular idea, and I won't feel so crunched trying to do the necessary research. I do not know, at this time, if I will be sharing the story really depends on how it goes, as unless I can generalize it effectively, it's more of a fan fiction

Research wise, I need to figure out the exact setting that I want to use, and descriptions and personalities for all the characters I plan on trying to use. I was waiting to do that until I had settled on an idea. I don't think I'll need to do much with this particular idea, but it doesn't hurt to get it down into a reference document either.

Additionally, I am wondering if I should read the source material for my idea, or just let it flow naturally. I'm thinking naturally, so I can avoid specific terminology and not be able to try and publish if it goes well.

Yeah, I'm ambitious. Why shouldn't I be?

My next concern is a title...I cannot figure out for the life of me what to call the story! It's really bothering me that I can't seem to come up with anything suitable. I'll have to work on that, I suppose...maybe there are some halfway decent name generators out there that might give me some ideas.

Wednesday, October 21, 2015


I've gotten interested in some anime this season....I don't often pay attention to what's out there anymore, not for the past few years anyway, but for whatever reason I checked this time and found a couple I want to give a try.

Dance With Devils is first up in my "To Watch" folder. While three episodes are out so far, I have only seen the first, and there are technically two musical numbers in it, near the beginning, making me wonder if this sets the tone for the series. All in all, the first episode was enough to get me intrigued enough to watch more of this reverse harem anime from Funimation. For information on a per episode basis, head here.

Ritsuka Tachibana is a female second-year high school student who attends Shiko Academy in Shiko Town. She enjoyed her school life while living with her mother Maria, but one day, that balance fell into ruin when she discovers several of her attractive, male classmate are demons.

Diabolik Lovers, More Blood is the second season, the first being just Diabolik Lovers. I gave the first episode a chance, and it's shorter than most anime - only fifteen minutes in length. And it's kind of...forced? I feel a lot of tropes coming on. I mean...the girls tries to run away, falls, and skins her knee in a room full of vampires. How awful is that? Still, color me curious - I'm going to give it a few more tries.

Diabolik Lovers: The heroine, Komori Yui, was a normal teenage girl until in her second year of high school; her father, a priest, has to go overseas for work. As a result, Yui is forced to move to a new town and arrives alone at a mansion she was told will be her new home. As she approaches the front door it begins to rain. Because no one answers her knock, she reaches for the knob, but the door swings open of its own accord. Yui enters the mansion to find no one in sight. As she starts to explore her immediate surroundings, she finds Ayato asleep on a couch. He wakes up as she approaches him and promptly pins her down. As she begins to panic, five other young men gradually appear. Yui notices something different about all of them. She discovers that all six of them are brothers but by three different mothers, and they all turn out to be vampires...

Diabolik Lovers, More Blood: In addition to the six Sakamaki vampire brothers, four new brothers from the Mukami family: Ruki, Kou, YĆ«ma, and Azusa, enter the daily life of Yui Komori.

What is with me and harem anime this season, lol?

Reflection & Preparation

Yesterday marked exactly one month since I quit Facebook. In that time, I have logged into it approximately once, and that was to follow steps I had found on an external site on how to delete your account, as opposed to just deactivating it. Occasionally, I will check the Humane Society of Sandusky County page, for any updated information on animals/adoptions. that has been the extent of my Facebook contact, and while it was odd at first, I've grown used to it - and you know what? I don't miss it. It has been better for my mental health, not seeing political propaganda and other assorted bullshit on a multiple times per day basis. I no longer get depressed or enraged at other peoples' statuses or lack of likes/comments on my own. End result? I feel much better about myself.

On the NaNoWriMo front, I've completed five outlines for five separate ideas. One idea has already been relegated as not appropriate for novel length, so has been put aside for now. I still have four to deal with. - I plan on seeking advice from friends on what,base don outlines, seems like it could be novel appropriate, and go from there (this process is how I determined the aforementioned idea was more appropriate for a short story format). I'm hoping to get it narrowed down soon (today would be nice), so I can flesh out some of the details needed for the story before I begin (characters, setting, etc) - at least a little bit more so that I can have a better idea of where I am going.

Monday, October 19, 2015

Changes & Other News

As you may have noticed, there has been a slight change to the blog.

Card of the Day posts have been removed from this blog. I have not stopped doing them, don't worry. I have simply moved them over to my group witchy things blog, Eclectic Esoterics, and am directing the sharing of those posts specifically to Pagan Reflections over on Google+.

Selfies of the Day have been removed as well. Don't worry - they're still being taken and they are being saved, in order to turn them into animated GIFs to post at the end of the month - basically, Selfies of the Day has become Selfies of the Month, and will still be posted to my Google+ page. I just did the GIF for September, and posted it here.

I signed up for NaNo today, under my usual nickname of Synderryn, and also located a NaNoWriMo community on Google+ and asked them for advice. I've yet to really pipe up in the other two writing related communities I belong to on G+, Writer's Discussion Group, and Writing Resources - though in looking up the links for those two I joined a third, Writing. I'm actually feeling some anxiety now that I've officially signed up for NaNo. I suppose because I haven't really decided on a story to write (still working on some ideas to flesh out, though I've created outlines for some) and because I haven't settled on what program to write in.

UPDATE: So far, in the NaNoWriMo  community, advice has been to not take things seriously, and figure out if I'm a planner or a pantser, lol.

I'm trying to figure out what other sorts of content I could place in my blog to be of more interest to people, or even just to  myself, that isn't just a constant rehash of the same old thing - though admittedly, my life is pretty simple with few changes in routine,

I could swear there were other things I wanted to discuss, but I can't remember them, and I've already been sitting here attempting to write this for a while now.

Sunday, October 18, 2015


Thanks to the support and encouragement of some friends (three) and my husband, I've decided to try and do NaNoWriMo next month. I haven't signed up over there yet, but I will do so soon.

I plan on spending the rest of October listing and outlining a few ideas that I have to see what may yield the best results for my writing attempt.

Additionally, during the rest of this month, I am going to try and figure out what the best programs for writing my story might be. I'm subscribed to a couple of writing communities on Google+, and though I cannot remember if it was advice given to me directly, or something I read in one of the communities, using a program such as Word is not recommended. I had thought about using Google Docs so that everything I had was stored on the cloud, but now I am not so certain. StoryPlanner is a site I learned about via one of the communities today, so I may try them to see if I like it or not. Scrivener is another option I came across, and a friend mentioned having some success with FocusWriter for "distraction free" writing. I'll have to figure out what the best method for me is prior to NaNo, me thinks.

I've got some helper resources on hand already - Writing Fiction For DummiesEureka: 501 Adventure Plots to Inspire Game MastersUnframed: The Art of Improvisation for Game MastersBloody Hooks, and Bride of Bloody Hooks. I know most of those are roleplaying references, but I thought that they might be extremely helpful for when/if I get stuck at any point. Additionally, I've got some non-vocal music ready to go on Google Play to, well, play when I write.

I've also done some math, figuring out how many days next month my kids have school (barring weather delays or cancellations), and figured out how many words per day I would need to do if I wanted to write only distraction (no kid) free, and it's about 2778, as opposed to 1667 if I wrote every day.

Tuesday, October 13, 2015


I ask of all my readers and/or the people who know me that end up reading this, to please give me your opinions on the subjects contained herein, be it via the comment system or via Skype/Hangouts. I would greatly appreciate the feedback.

I decided to write this post because I've been mulling an idea over, but I'm not sure if I can bring myself to dedicate the time or motivation it takes to devote myself to any of these projects, although some likely need very much to be done.

I am debating whether or not to participate in NaNoWriMo this year. I haven't yet decided if I should or not, but it's feasible that I could set aside some quiet time during November to write. For those of you who don't know (though I did provide a link tot he Wiki article, if y ou are so inclined), NaNoWriMo is short for National Novel Writing Month.

NaNoWriMo challenges participants to write 50,000 words (the minimum number of words for a novel) from November 1 until the deadline at 11:59PM on November 30. The goal of NaNoWriMo is to get people writing and keep them motivated throughout the process.The main goal is to encourage creativity worldwide.

I might have a story idea or a few in my head somewhere. I might be able to do this. But, assuming I do do it, should it be officially or unofficially? How should I go about doing this, if I do it at all? I'm very lost when it comes to stuff like this, which is why I haven't made the decision to participate, but am only contemplating doing it.

That was the major thing I've been contemplating. Other things that are on my mind are roleplaying and warcraft related, but I'm not going to write about those here, as I want the main focus of my post to be about NaNoWriMo and people's opinions about it. I'd love to hear from people who've actually tried it in it's 15 year tenure (this will be year 16).

Sunday, October 11, 2015

Catching Up

Read an article this morning entitled How To Make A Clean Break With The Clingiest Social Networks. In it, it described how to delete your Facebook account as opposed to just deactivating it, which is what I had ended up doing, because I wasn't sure how to delete. So I logged back into Facebook, just long enough to go to the link that the article provided in order to delete my account. Which won't be deleted for fourteen days, incase I change my mind. Here's a clue, Facebook - if I haven't logged in for thirty days (since September 20th), than I am not coming back.

In World of Warcraft related news, I've been playing a little more than I have been the past few months, although still not a ton, admittedly. I'm getting closer to earning the Draenor Pathfinder achievement, which means that once I complete it, I'll be able to fly in Draenor....I just need to do a few pain in the ass things before I get there. What are those pain in the ass things? Collecting the treasure, gaining the Tannan rep, and waiting for the apexis assaults that I need (Skettis and Iron Siegeworks) to show up so I can do those. Did The Pit the other day, and that was a pain in the ass. Not too worried about completing the quests and exploration in Nagrand, however.

My Vampire: The Masquerade game set in Salem has been going decently well. A new player has come into the fold - a request made by her friend, due to her previous gaming group falling apart. I don't mind this person, although I don't know her very well, so I feel kind of awkward going into certain topics, such as what happened this past Thursday. Which reminds me, I really should make another journal entry post for my ST NPC character so that anyone who is interested can follow along. It's here (only an introspection post so far), and then another player has one here (though it hasn't been updated in a couple of sessions).

Just started my Changeling: The Dreaming game set in New Orleans last night, sans one player who was unable to attend the session due to real life circumstances. No problem there - we didn't get far, and I can easily work her in. The players had a lot of fun, which is good - though I admittedly started to lose focus near the end. For one reason, my kids were getting hyper, and for another, I felt as though I had nothing to do, except pay attention. My own fault - I didn't have anything specific for the players to do except get to know one another, and I hadn't yet introduced a character (though I'm thinking possible of introducing a mortal for them to glamour, or possible a Kinain. Granted...the mentor character I had in mind is Kinain himself. Hmmm...perhaps I will discuss more on it with my husband, as he is an experienced GM and player (though not necessarily in this game). and may be able to help me make a decision. Minor technical difficulties as well, due to not being able to hear two of the players as well as the third, though that may have just been a headset related thing.

In personal news, I have lately been exceptionally cranky and headachey the past week, and I'm wondering if it has to do with restarting a medication that I did not have for most of last month. While I could be wrong, I'm not so sure that I am. Looking at the facts and common side effects points to it being the medication's fault. Additionally, I've been feeling more depressed - been wanting to stay in bed and do nothing lately. Maybe it's me coming down from that time of month too, I'm not certain, but I think maybe I'll try calling the psychiatric nurse at my counseling center and see what her opinion is, since that's what she's there for.

Speaking of bed, I think I am going to head that way. I feel like I have a lack of things to do (which isn't true, I know I have things I could be doing), among other issue, so I'm going to lay down. Also, my back hurts.

Monday, October 05, 2015

Rough Day

I'm having a hard time today, and I have not pinpointed exactly why, although there has been enough evidence to support the theory of 'today will suck'.

My morning started after a rough night of sleep. I checked my email first thing, as I usually do (my phone sits right next to my bed, after all) and perhaps the tone of the day was set by a comment I received on one of my posts. It was very simple, just saying "Miss you on facebook :)"

Don't get me wrong, I appreciate that I am missed, I truly do. But to have that extra tidbit thrown in just seems completely unnecessary, especially as I have expressed my reasons for leaving Facebook. It feels like I am trying to be drawn back into a place where I felt more alienated and emotionally stressed that I do now.

I'm not trying to say that this person meant it that way, of course - just that that was my reaction at 7am and barely awake.

I took care of typical weekday morning stuff and got the kids off to school before going back to bed for another couple of hours, getting up at around 10:30. I did breakfast, and then had to deal with a phone call from my mother-in-law about how to set up her Roku Streaming Stick (you literally just need to plug it in and connect to your wireless network). I finally had her call her cable provider to help with connecting to her wireless network. She's called two or three more times since then needing more help with things, and I've been doing other stuff so I haven't answered yet.

After breakfast and fielding phone calls and trying to sort matters out with the pharmacy and the doctor's office on my husband's behalf, I ended up taking another nap with him, waking up at around 1:30. For the past almost two hours I've fielded some emails from my mom asking how the kids and I are doing and if we did anything special for my husband's birthday yesterday, I have also attempted to contact the seller of an item I ordered off of ecrater, only to have the mail returned to me. The other email I sent on the 30th has not been sent back or responded to yet, so I am concerned that my item that I ordered for my husband will not ship out. If I have to file a grievance, I will, and when I get my money back I'll try to order it from elsewhere.

To further complicate matters, I haven't been able to get in touch with a friend whom I typically talk to every day and have heard from by this point, so I'm a bit concerned.

in any case, I'm going to try and make a few phone calls here and see if I can't get something to go right today, or at least prevent it from getting more annoying.

Thursday, October 01, 2015


Woke up in a kind of defeatist mood this morning - I think it's due to yesterday's new, and looming possibilities. I'll try to explain here. 
Yesterday I was supposed to have an appointment to review my medications and how I was adapting. As I was leaving, I got a call from the school, telling me that my youngest son was having a major meltdown and I was needed. 
I headed over to the school as quickly as I could legally allow, as the message that they had left for me made it sound pretty bad. I collected him, and he was happier after I was there. He helped put away things that had been thrown, and made apologies to all the teachers and the principal, and I took him home, whereupon I rescheduled my appointment for Monday. he was very well behaved after getting home. 
Interim report cards came home yesterday as well. My youngest is doing ok, if you go by his IEP. My middle child is doing beautifully, though she's disappointed by her lowest grade (it was a B). My oldest brought home the gamut, with commentary that he shuts down when he gets frustrated. So now my husband and I are trying to determine what's going on and how we can best help him. 
Added to yesterday's woes, we received a letter from the managed HUD property we applied for - we are denied due to "unfavorable credit history". This is especially frustrating for us, as we have been trying to get into this place for a year before they switched management on us. Not only that, but this management company owns one of the other low-income housing complexes in the city. That doesn't leave many options left if we want to get out of where we are at now. 
Looming on the horizon is the threat of government shutdown. If government cannot pass a budget by September 30th, I, and every other SNAP recipient, will lose benefits. How will I feed my family then? I don't know, so am hoping hard that some form of resolution occurs next week, and quickly, too. 
It's really stupid too, and all because of their stance on Planned Parenthood. It's not okay for there to be abortions, but it;s okay to starve those children after they're born (hell, even before they are born, because the mothers wouldn't be able to receive proper nutrition). 
I guess I'm opinionated this morning. Wouldn't you be though, if you were in my shoes? If you weren't, I'd be worried about you. 
I am hopeful though. 
If things work out, I should have a good month next month. I should be able to give my kids a good Halloween, and my husband a good birthday. It's also looking like I might finally be able to adopt my therapy cat. 

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

So Far, So Good

My schedule has been thrown off a little bit today by a two hour school delay, due to fog. Therefore, I feel a little thrown off today, but not too bad. Still getting stuff done.

Thus far today, I have some aches and pains (a toothache with accompanying jaw and ear pain, as well as a minor headache (all on the left side) as a result), and my right knee area is stiff and sore from where I fell the other day.

I've blogged my card of the day and my selfie, gotten the kids showered and dressed, pulled meat out for dinner and started a load of laundry. Typical stuff, really.

Was going through my G+ feed last night, and was once again struck by how hokey and superficial some things seem to me. This is a topic, I feel, for Eclectic Esoterics, so look for it there in the near future, if you are interested. I'm sure people won't share my opinions on the matter (my opinions seem to be unpopular recently), but it's how I feel about things. I'm not going to do something that feels stupid to me, just because it's the supposed norm, you know?

Last night in guild went well. They were talking military as a way to get schooling, and I stated my opinion as thus: "Or you could, you know, be intelligent and not join the military." My husband, bless him, attempted to defend me and explain what I meant, only to get lashed out at by one particular individual. So he (my husband) signed off, feeling angry and hurt over a few related things, and a comment was made to the effect of how he (the argumentative person) wasn't about to let him (my husband) play victim and say he was belittled. So I went off on him, because that's exactly what happened. Ugh, guild drama. So I take away from this to never have an opinion in guild chat - it'll just devolve into an argument.

I was going to write after doing some WoW things, however after that debacle I wasn't in the mood. I'm going to try and write later today, however, over at RPG Voices. I want to do some writing on my character from the game my husband is running - mainly about things previous to when we started gaming, as a way to help flesh out the character more. I already did a basic backstory before game began - I just mean doing filler/fluff information.

Kids still  have an hour before they need to leave! *sigh* It feels like a long day already :(

On a different note, Google Play Music could use some improvement! I like the fact that you can upload your own music and all, but you cannot share that track or those playlists with anyone - only your purchased music. That's annoying to me. Guess if I want to embed the track for this post I find it on youtube, eh?

Tuesday, September 22, 2015


I decided today to delete my private blog. I've barely been writing in it, and if I want to write to myself, I can just have a document in Google Docs or Google Keep or something.

I wrote my Open Letter To Friends and Family on the 20th. It is now the 22nd, and out of the fifteen I advised of that post, I have heard from approximately eight. Just eight. And of the several family members I had friended that I know shared stuff out daily...I have heard from two. Only two - out of at least six family members. How depressing is that? I guess I know who really cares now.

Productivity today has been good. I have opted to wait to do laundry until kids get home so I can see if school clothes need to be washed or not, but I banged out everything on my morning to-do's by the time the kids left for school. The only additional thing I have gotten done is get in a housing app over at a place I was on the waiting list for. They were taken over by new management, and I am keeping my fingers crossed that things go smoothly - I really want to get out of this hellhole.

Injured myself yesterday, rather badly in the left shoulder and below the right knee. I was helping a friend carrying his brand new still-in-the-box 55 gallon fish tank aquarium kit up the stairs to his new place and as we were turning the corner into his apartment, I tripped, falling first to my knee and the forward onto the floor. Nothing broke, just bruised and sore.

On family life, things have been going well. Kids have been doing good in school, though at home we've had several brat issues with my daughter. She's been grounded three or four times this past week alone because of attitude. My oldest has been very helpful and very well behaved, even when sick the end of last week, and my youngest has been pretty good as well.

Personally, I am doing far better on my new medication than my old. I am much more motivated, I am getting things done, and I actually want to do things - I don't just sit here and stare off into space or fall asleep. As for hobbies, I don't have many of those. I've mainly been listening to my various Spotify playlists and setting aside songs that might work as good prompts for a piece of fiction to write over at Creative Scribbles or as songs to put on one of the many soundtracks I have for the games I am involved in.

Roleplaying has been going well. I've been running Salem with my husband and a friend, and will be adding someone new to the mix soon. On Friday we will be starting New Orleans after planning it for a while - which reminds me, I need to help someone with their character and make sure they're available Friday and not going to be raiding. The Ghouls game hasn't happened for at least a week - things just haven't come together in order to be able to play.

I haven't been playing much World of Warcraft recently. Nothing about it has been terribly appealing. I need to work on getting flying in Draenor, and I have people that will help me with that...I just haven't logged on, and I can't figure out exactly why I don't want to. Things are hinky with the guild - an officer pulled all his toons out and at least one other person went with him. I don't know the reason, and I'm not sure I want to know. On the plus side it looks as though my husband may get promoted to officer soon, as he was invited to the officer meeting this weekend. 

Movie or Television wise, I only watch movies over dinner. So that's only ten to thirty minutes of a movie at a time. Presently, I am on Legends of the Fall. I had planned to binge watch Supernatural, but I don't know if that's in the cards. I tried sitting down to watch it one day and kept getting interrupted. It pissed me off and I haven't tried going back to the series yet. So it isn't that I don't like the series itself - just that I hate interruptions!

Yesterday I went through and deleted things off my computer that I didn't need, use or have even looked at in months - years, in some cases. So gone went some documents (anything I wanted to keep but didn't need immediate access to were zipped up), gone went some pictures (any pictures I kept went into my wallpapers folder for John's Background Switcher to utilize), and gone went a bunch of games I had stored on my system. From there I reinstalled a program I had accidentally uninstalled and organized my recent downloads into appropriate folders.

I think I might start leaving off my posts with whatever song I'm listening to, assuming I'm listening to music. I am now, however, so I'm going to embed the Spotify code here. Who knows, but it might be that you find something new you like!

Enjoy the music! Imma gonna go eat a caramel.

Sunday, September 20, 2015

Open Letter to Friends and Family

I have determined that Facebook is harmful to my mental health and well-being. Therefore, effective immediately I will deleting my account.

All contacts will be removed, and all pages will be unfollowed. If I can find a way to delete Facebook and keep my Spotify, I will be doing that.

If you wish to maintain contact with me, you will have to use one of the following methods with which to do so. I am sorry if this is inconvenient, however my mental and emotional well-being is more important.


Google Hangouts - you only need a google account for this. They are free, and you can get hangouts on computer as a browser page, as a chrome app (google chrome is your required browser), android, or iphone. You can add me via my email address (, or look for me by name, Erica House-Lantto.

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Thursday, September 17, 2015

Musical Opinion

Going through my downloaded music, and found out one of my discographies were incomplete (Nightwish), so I had to grab their last two albums (and convert one from FLAC to MP3, but that's beside the point). In listening to each track from every album, I have discovered my tastes have changed a little.

Tarja Turunen was their lead singer for the band from 1996 until 2005, when she was dismissed because the band felt that she,  her husband and commercial interests had changed her attitude towards the band. But anyway, I've found that although I appreciate her voice talent, I don't like a lot of the songs because everything seems to have that very opera like quality to it, and it's just not something I want in my music. Her vocals wee featured in the albums Angels Fall First (1997), Oceanborn (1998), Wishmaster (2000), Century Child (2002), and Once (2004).

Anette Olzon was brought in as Tarja's replacement, and her vocals aren't as...high pitched? I want to say. I like them better, though I was resistant initially. She was with the band from 2006 until her dismissal in 2012 due to "the direction and the needs of the band were in conflict, and this has led to a division from which we cannot recover" according to a press statement released on Facebook. Her vocals were featured on the albums Dark Passion Play (2007), Imaginaerum (2011).

Floor Jansen was brought in as a permanent replacement for Anette in 2013. Her vocals are featured on the band's latest album Endless Forms Most Beautiful (2015), and I hadn't heard her until today. I must say I am liking her vocals very much.

I decided to post here a video from the different eras of the band, for each female lead singer.

Tarja Turunen singing "Wish I Had An Angel" from Once (2004)

Anette Olzon singin "Amaranth" from Dark Passion Play (2007)

Floor Jansen singing "Elan" from Endless Forms Most Beautiful (2015)

Sunday, September 13, 2015

Kind of an Introspection?

Very much a kind of blah right now.

I haven't posted here in ages, because I don't feel that anything i need to write can be said because people I don't want to see it will see it, and I don't write in my private blog because what's the point of doing that when there's no possibility of feedback anyway?

I don't even know why I'm writing now. Guess I'll try to cover a few things.

School finally started back up. Thank god for that! They were driving me insane being home all the time. Jack and Katy started on the 1st of September, while Ethan didn't start until the 3rd. Then there was Labor Day, which resulted in a three day weekend for them, so this upcoming week will be their first full week of school. I shall relish in the five days a week of peace and quiet - just wish I had more to do during that time.

Speaking of things to do, I made a list of things to do when I'm bored or depressed.

  • Blogging
    • Do a daily blog
    • Talk about favorite rpg's
  • World of Warcraft
    • Play an alt
    • Play at all
    • Read one new piece of WoW lore
    • Read wow lore chronologially
    • Set up an alt guild
      • Think of names for alt guild
        • Don't Worry, I'm Caffeinated
  • Other
    • Color once a week and scan in and put it up
    • Do yoga or pilates
    • Read a wicca book
    • Read a fiction book

As you've probably guessed by now, things are going remarkably well. Oh wait, let me turn off my sarcasm.

Prior to this format, the list was about creating a personal website. Which I did, in fact, do. I just look at it now as a colossal waste of time project, because no one will ever look at the damn thing. I guess I am doing some things on the list now - after all, I'm writing this blog. So let's talk about the other stuff on the list, in order.

Do a daily blog - Well, that's what this is, isn't it?

Talk about favorite rpg's - I'll get to games in short order, but as for my favorite rpg? Probably Vampire: The Masquerade. It's what I've played the most, understand the most, and enjoy the most, out of what I've tried. There's others out there, but this is the one I like best.

World of Warcraft - While I am excited for the next expansion it's not here yet, and I haven't logged in for more than a few minutes - maybe an hour, tops - all month. I don't know what it is, exactly, save for perhaps I'm not fond of endgame content? I don't know...that still wouldn't be an excuse for not playing an alt. Only thing I have been kind of excited about is making my own guild again. Not that I don't like the one I'm in, mind you, because I do. Maybe I just want the challenge? I don't know if anyone would follow me, however.

Color once a week and scan in and put it up - I haven't found the right picture to spark a desire to color yet. Been downloading line art that I like, but nothing jumps up and yells PRINT ME!!! Maybe I'm waiting for us to get a working scanner? The one we have won't scan because that printer is out of ink.

Do Yoga or Pilates - Yea, this hasn't started yet. I'm depressed about the fact that I've gained six fucking pounds since last month when I saw the doctor. I need to look up or download vids for exercising, I think, and try to do them on my own, then h ope I don't get all anxious about doing them while people are around, even if the only person home is my husband and he won't make fun of me for doing them, even though the anxiety says he might. 

Read a Wicca book - I have a ton of these, and I've only cracked open a few. I blame it on retention, and having to read, and then re-read because my mind wanders off, but I don't know if that's really the problem or not. Point being, I haven't done it, and doubt I am going to do it any time soon. 

Read a fiction book - More or less the same as above. I haven't tried reading in a while though - I quit because Ethan kept knocking or yanking the tablet out of my hands any time I tried to read. I also feel overwhelmed by what I have to catch up on, that at this point I might as well start the series they belong to over from scratch. If I do that, should I review them, or would that be too much of a pain in the ass? I don't know, but it's a thought I didn't think of before. 

That's all that's on my list, and it seems pathetically small, but I've got little else I can feasibly do, I think. I don't know why i'm going to all this trouble to write stuff down - betting no one will comment. And there I go with the negative thoughts again! Got to get out of this rut. And that's probably what this is - a rut that I feel stuck in and unable to escape from. I started a sentence with and...aren't you supposed to never do that? Oh well - what's done is done and I'm not going to bother changing it now. 

Thinking that perhaps I should add some writing goals to my to-do list as well. Maybe some day if I plod away enough at it and don't get too down on myself and overly dissect my work, I  could publish something, even if it's only a self-publish. 

Oh, and I should probably add binge watch Supernatural on there as well. Wont' be hard to enjoy, it's just a matter of not getting constantly interrupted - which is probably another reason I don't read. I hate being interrupted, it pisses me off. By that same token, I need to learn to not interrupt others when they are talking or doing things. 

I said I was going to talk about the roleplaying games that I currently havve (or until recently, had) on my syngames site )those are games in progress or about to begin). 

Dungeons & Dragons: Princes of the Apocalypse: It's been over a month since we played, so I removed the game from the syngames site. I honestly don't know that we're ever going to get back to it, and it's been so long since we played that I cannot remember anything that has happened, nor can I recall anything about my character. I have to look up my character sheet just to remember her name, 

World of Darkness: Mage - A game that was brought up and changed GM hands before it's even been begun. Twice even. The book (a monstrosity of a book, I might add) hasn't even been fuly read. And while some characters have been created, not everyone has made a acharacter, and ideas have not been coming for it, so it's fallen by the wayside, potentially to get picked back up at a later time, but who knows. 

World of Darkness: New Orleans - I had the idea to run a game, and got ideas based of a cheesy SyFy movie that I had ended up really liking. Others took interest, and not everyone has a completed character yet, or at all, in some cases, but the foundation is there, and ideas are there. Just waiting on hearing when a potential start date could be. A little concerned this may never get off the ground, due to conflicting schedules. 

World of Darkness: Salem - Actively being played right now. There's been three sessions, although the first session was retconned due to someone losing their character and not being able to remember enough about it to recreate it. So a new character was made and we started over again. Two sessions in, and it's been a good amount of fun so far. 

World of Darkness: Ghouls 2.0 - By far the game I am having the most fun with so far. Unlike Salem, I am not running this game, which may be part of the reason for the tons of fun. Been playing for a while, and quite a bit has happened, as is covered by character journals, but I want to play more, and hopefully sooner rather than later. 

Honestly? That's fairly accurate, though I don't think I dislike myself as much as I used to. Am I addicted to rp? Pretty much...I want to do it all the time, assuming it's the right game. Been trying to reign in asking to play all the time, and I think I've been doing ok, although I still talk about it a lot. 

There should be more here. I've been writing for at least an hour, maybe more, and it doesn't feel like enough has been put to this entry, and yet I've run out of things to say, I think. 

Thursday, August 06, 2015

Tuesday, August 04, 2015

On Roleplaying cont.

Continuing from yesterday, I was looking at the Onyx Path Publishing site today, on their current projects status. They have status bars for everything they currently have going, and apparently things have 9 stages. So I looked at stuff there to see where it stood - the stuff that I'm interested in that wasn't mentioned int he pamphlet I downloaded yesterday, that is.

Please note that all this info is copied from their website onto my blog. Keep in mind also that I am only listing what I am interested in.

The times listed on this page indicate intent, and are not a guarantee. As time progresses, circumstances may interfere with our intent. Details subject to change. Keep checking back here for the most up-to-date information.
Progress bars list nine (9) production stages: first draft, redlines, second draft, development, editing, post-editing development, layout and art direction, CCP approvals, and release. PDFs are released first, then any changes are collected and made before final print proofs are ordered.


VTM – The Black Hand: A Guide to the Tal’Mahe’Ra: Akin to the previous Guides to the CamarillaSabbat, and Anarchs, a sect book covering the True Black Hand. 240 pages. PDF/PoD/Possible Deluxe Kickstarter.
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VTM – Ghouls: V20 contained a large section on Ghouls, and this book is intended to expand on that info and really delve deep into the twilight lives of these empowered yet enslaved creatures: lovers, slaves, guardians, betrayers. 120 pages. Developer: Matt McElroy. PDF/PoD/Deluxe Kickstarter
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VTM – Beckett’s Jyhad Diary: Gives concrete advice on how to use Masquerade’s wealth of cool canon characters and exciting events in a V20 chronicle. Includes advice on how to run players through metaplot, as inTransylvania by Night or The Giovanni Chronicles160 pages. PDF/PoD/Possible Deluxe Kickstarter.
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VTM – Lore of the Clans: This volume would revisit the Clans as a collection of mini-clanbooks, with each clan’s subsection arranged in the same format. Each Clan gets new story hooks, character concepts, and history. 240 pages. PDF/PoD/Deluxe Kickstarter.
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Wraith: The Oblivion 20th Anniversary Edition: A letter of love to our Oblivion fans. In style and philosophy a matching volume to V20.Developer: Richard Dansky
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Changeling: The Dreaming 20th Anniversary Edition: A letter of love to our Dreaming fans. In style and philosophy a matching volume to V20.Developer: Matt McFarland. PDF/PoD?Deluxe Kickstarter.
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WTA – Changing Ways: Explores the psychology of Garou as archetypal hunter and religious fanatic, the mindset of a character that wasn’t born among humans, and the strange and sometimes disturbing powers that our protagonists derive from the spirit world. 160 pages. PDF/PoD.
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VTM – V20 Ready-Made Characters.
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WTA – Kinfolk: A book on Kinfolk presents the Apocalypse War from the point of view of characters who aren’t the Sacred Warriors. They’re just normal folks with a monster lurking in the foliage of the family tree, who may or may not know what’s really going on—the Imperial Guard to the Garou’s Space Marines. The whole field has a lot of really meaty horror to get into, from the paranoid conspiracy angle—Waco from the Branch Davidians’ side—to one family with a shotgun against Banes, fomori, and everything else. Developer: Stew Wilson
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MTAs – Victorian Mage: This book will cover the Victorian era with as much detail and respect for sources as Victorian Age: Vampire. VA: Mage will cover 1880 to 1897, building on the foundation of the Order of the Golden Dawn, and revealing the foundation of the modern Technocracy.320 pages. PDF/PoD/Possible Deluxe Kickstarter.
MTAs – Digital Web 3.0: The Digital Web for the new millennium. Explores the ins and outs of one of Mage’s most iconic features as a game of modern magick. 160 pages. PDF/PoD.


These products will be coming, but due to their creation as Kickstarter stretch goal rewards, have no solid place on the schedule.
VTM – Lore of the BloodlinesDeveloper: Eddy Webb. PDF/PoD
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V20DA – V20 Dark Ages QuickstartPDF/PoD
V20DA – V20 Dark Ages Tome of SecretsPDF/PoD
WTA – Houses of the MoonPDF/PoD
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WTA – Pentex Employee Indoctrination HandbookPDF/PoD
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MTAs – How Do You DO That?!: Practical Guide to Sphere Magick60,000+ words. PDF/PoD
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MTAs – Book of the Fallen100,000+ words. PDF/PoD
MTAs – Gods, Monsters, and Other Familiar Strangers: An M20 Character Compendium115,000+ words. PDF/PoD
MTAs – M20 Book of Secrets180,000+ words. PDF/PoD
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MTAs – M20 CookbookPDF/PoD
MTAs – Technocracy: ReloadedPDF/PoD

Monday, August 03, 2015

On Roleplaying

Just downloaded the 2015-2016 publishing brochure from my favorite RPG ocmpany, Onyx Path Publishing (they've taken over for White Wolf - many of the same staff White Wolf had)/

Things that I am interested in for my 20th anniversary collection are as follows:

Lore of the Clans
Lore of the Clans is a single volume revisiting the history, lore, and nightly practices of all thirteen Clans, told from the perspective of the Kindred themselves. It also contains new combo Disciplines, powers, Merits, Flaws, and other rules specific to each Clan. Coming Soon.

Guide to the Tal’Mahe’Ra
Guide to the Tal’Mahe’Ra offers a fresh take on the dark conspiracy known as the True Black Hand, showing the twisted lives of these strange and nihilistic Kindred. Coming Soon.

Shattered Dreams
In pre-history, the Garou worked alongside other shapeshifters to safeguard Gaia, but the werewolves’ great Rage drove them into a civil war that left the world a much easier target. Later,
colonialism and conquest brought the shapeshifters into conflict once again. This book presents a look at the Wars of Rage, both as the setting of a chronicle and as parts of a great quest against the Wyrm’s forces in the modern nights. Coming Soon.

Changing Ways
The Garou are shapeshifting warriors with physical abilities and instincts that humans can only imagine. This book delves into what it means to be a werewolf, including details on the forms and senses of the Garou, the pack mentality, what it is to grow up among wolves — or werewolves — and the spirit magic that empowers Gaia’s defenders.  Coming Soon.

How Do You Do That?!?
An illustrated game-system overview of common magicks and the rules for running them successfully. Coming Soon.

Gods, Monsters, and  Other Familiar Strangers
Features a selection of characters from various Mage: The Ascension - 20th Anniversary Edition factions and sects designed as a handy resource for both examples of Mage characters and NPCs. Also contains descriptions of familiars, spirits, beasts, powerful demons, totems, godlings, and Bygones. Coming Soon.

Book of Secrets
This illustrated compendium of additional 20th  Anniversary Edition material includes characters, Traits, influence, subsects, mage tricks, and more extended rules and advice. Coming Soon.

Wraith: The Oblivion - 20th Anniversary Edition returns to that darkly compelling world and both compiles and completes the concepts of the previous two editions.

It includes:
• Updated and revised Arcanoi, including those Charon had forbidden.
• Updated setting material on every faction in the Underworld.
• A new look at Stygia and the Guilds.
• Complete rules for playing Spectres and Risen.
• Updated core rules.
• Advanced systems for Harrowing and  Shadowguides.

And more…because everything dead is new again.

Changeling: The Dreaming - 20th Anniversary Edition brings the game back from a long hiatus, and will serve as the perfect anniversary milestone to celebrate two decades of passionate dreams. Players who loved Changeling will finally have a new edition, and newcomers to the World of Darkness will able to dream with us.

•  Thirteen fully playable kiths, including fan favorites from supplements (selkies, piskies, and more!);
•  Updated and revised rules.
•  Rules and history for the Gallain — the Nunnehi, the hsien, and the inanimae.
•  Arts collected from the classic Changeling sourcebooks and revised for the current system.
•  Updated setting for modern dreams.

...and more!


Thoughts so far:

Coming soon is a fucking cop-out!! Grrrrr........

then I continue on to read the rest of the PDF (skipping over the New World of Darkness crap stuff).


Upcoming Releases

The Prince's Judgement - An entry-level, simplified version of Vampire: The Masquerade. This book contains everything players will need for an evening of casual gaming set in a vampiric Prince's Council as they try and determine who is a Sabbat infiltrator and traitor. 80 pages containing the rules and the cards needed for play.

Winter 2015-2016

Digital Web 3.0 - Between the keyboard and hte mind lies the Digital Web, a Net of virtual reality spinning in an endless loop of format and creation. This expanding Realm of living rhought forms what might be the most dangerous frontier in the Ascension War. A new and modern Mage 20th anniversary Edition version of the classic magic infused internet sourcebook.

Spring 2016

W20 Bunyip Tribebook - Designed to match the classic, original Tribebooks, this is the story of the Australian Lost Tribe destroyed by their enemies and abandoned by their fellow Garou.

Summer 2016

Rich Bastard’s Guide to Magick – A Mage 20 th  Anniverary Edition sourcebook that expands
on the mystique of the elite with an exploration of how the REAL movers and shakers operate when you throw magick into their world as well. Mansions, high-ticket toys, expanded Backgrounds for wealthy wizards, Technocrats, and other high-resource types.

Deviant: The ??? – You woke up…different. Someone changed you; on a slab, an operating table,
an altar. By luck or by fate, you escaped. Hunted by the ones who made you, they hold all the cards.
Except one thing, what they don’t know is that a fire burns within you because what they did wasn’t
right. What they don’t know is that YOU’RE hunting THEM. Deviant: The ??? presents a game where the victims of experiments band together to bring down the monolithic organizations that twisted and warped them.


Final Thoughts: I don't know what system Deviant is going to run under, but it could be interested. Reserving judgement.

Where the hell is V20 Ghouls?!?!?!