Saturday, December 31, 2016

A Small Treatise On Depression

For the record, depression sucks balls.

While I am happy to be living in a new place, have a new car and a general better quality of life, depression still hits me, very hard sometimes. It's hard to work my way out of it, it's hard to think through it - hell, its hard to want to do much more than lay in bed and try to sleep the day away. But I get up because my kids need me to be up. I may go back upstairs after half an hour, but I make every effort.

This holiday season seems to be especially hard - I don't know if that's because, overall, 2016 has been a rough year or because I miss my dad or some combination...I couldn't tell you. I just know it feels like it's been difficult for me.

Right now my eldest son is upstairs on his tablet, while my youngest is playing video games. My daughter is on her way to a New Year's Eve party with my mom that will be at my cousin's place. My husband is downstairs, per my request to have company, though he is watching Netflix presently. I'm at a loss for what to do, really. I looked at imgur for new posts and came here to ramble, and when I'm done I don't know what I'll do, other than continue to try and not be depressed.

Hobbywise, little has been happening. I haven't really been interested in World of Warcraft for a while. I have been playing The Sims 4 a little. Roleplaying feels like it's been at a standstill for quite a while. Theoretically there's a few games in the pipe, but most have yet to start. My Dark Ages game was on hiatus for approximately 2 months due to moving and scheduling conflicts, and right now I don't know when the next time we'll be able to get back to it is. I've got a game I need to work on for my husband and my friend out in California, but that was just decided on last night, and I have a vague idea already of where I might want to try and go with it.

My train of thought has derailed - I got momentarily distracted by the show hubby is watching because he made a comment about it. Not a bad thing - I didn't have much of a train going to begin with. I guess that's all for now? I guess to take something for a mild headache.

Friday, July 01, 2016


I've started back on doing a daily to-do list, and I'm going to start trying to do daily selfies, but do like what I was doing before, and animate them and only post them once a month, instead of everyday and clogging things up with them. Seeing as today is the first day of July, it's as good a time as any to start, right?

So just tried to take a selfie with the webcam, and with where my desk is positioned it's hard not to get one of the kids in the shot - I had to ask them to move. However, the first pic for July is taken, so there is that.

Saturday, May 07, 2016

Just Some Rambling

I haven't written in a while, because I never seem to know what to say. When I do feel like writing a post, it's usually because I want or need to vent about things going on in my life, yet I am reluctant to do so because this blog is public and I'm leery of inviting drama into my life by venting about things or people in my life and them coming across the post and reading it or judging me without knowing me or what I've been through.

Whatever, I guess. I suppose when/if I do decide to do venting blog posts I do have a resource for it - just not here. While writing the idle thought of a tumblr blog crossed my mind but thankfully common sense prevailed. Frankly, I can't stand tumblr...not the site itself nor the culture surrounding it.

Recently too I've been in the mood to do some writing, and I did actually write something the other day, in-character, as it were, and post it to my other blog. Hell, I think that blog has seen more activity than this one, but then, my life isn't as interesting, lol. Kind of in the mood to write today, however the focus isn't there. I try to think about picking up where I left off and I just blank because I can't focus. But then, it's the weekend and the kids are home and active, which means noise, so I guess the lack of focus thing is understandable.

Anyway....don't really know what else to say. Think I might try and change my blog layout. Again. Been vaguely toying with doing the selfies of the month again. Or a post-of-the-day thing. Not really sure, but would like to hear opinions, if anyone has any.

Friday, April 22, 2016

Tattoo Ideas

This is it, the possible tattoo ideas I could think of. I tried to think of things that define me, like some of my favorite things or my favorite hobbies. Some things I looked at, I didn't think would translate well into a tattoo, or couldn't think of how to translate, or just plain couldn't find an image that I liked. I feel kind of bad that I can't come up with more options right now. That being said, I'm covering my two favorite hobbies here: World of Warcraft and roleplaying. Please give opinions? I also welcome new ideas. once one is settled on, I'll work on (maybe with your help?) figuring out size and placement

The Sabbat sect symbol. The more I play vampire, the more I think I align with their core beliefs (more or less), though Camarilla is generally easier to play/run. I would have put a clan symbol, but I can't think of any one particular clan I would want tatt'd on my body.

The symbol of the Blood Elves, my favorite race since the introduction of Burning Crusade (and not just because they're pretty!). From WoW Wiki:

The Icon of Blood is the racial crest of the blood elves, and symbolizes their fall and subsequent rise during Third War. The drop of blood represents their brethren who fell to the Scourge, while the phoenix on the shield represents their own survival and return to power in Quel'Thalas. The golden leaves likely represent the forests of Eversong Woods.
I've always felt like they got shafted.

POST EDIT: As the hunter symbol from wow is no longer in contention, I removed it from the post so as not to cause confusion to people who haven't seen the post yet.

PLACEMENT: Blood Elf Crest would either be left shoulder blade or left upper arm for more visibility. Sabbat Symbol would probably be forearm, either left or right - not entirely sure yet, however.