Saturday, December 31, 2016

A Small Treatise On Depression

For the record, depression sucks balls.

While I am happy to be living in a new place, have a new car and a general better quality of life, depression still hits me, very hard sometimes. It's hard to work my way out of it, it's hard to think through it - hell, its hard to want to do much more than lay in bed and try to sleep the day away. But I get up because my kids need me to be up. I may go back upstairs after half an hour, but I make every effort.

This holiday season seems to be especially hard - I don't know if that's because, overall, 2016 has been a rough year or because I miss my dad or some combination...I couldn't tell you. I just know it feels like it's been difficult for me.

Right now my eldest son is upstairs on his tablet, while my youngest is playing video games. My daughter is on her way to a New Year's Eve party with my mom that will be at my cousin's place. My husband is downstairs, per my request to have company, though he is watching Netflix presently. I'm at a loss for what to do, really. I looked at imgur for new posts and came here to ramble, and when I'm done I don't know what I'll do, other than continue to try and not be depressed.

Hobbywise, little has been happening. I haven't really been interested in World of Warcraft for a while. I have been playing The Sims 4 a little. Roleplaying feels like it's been at a standstill for quite a while. Theoretically there's a few games in the pipe, but most have yet to start. My Dark Ages game was on hiatus for approximately 2 months due to moving and scheduling conflicts, and right now I don't know when the next time we'll be able to get back to it is. I've got a game I need to work on for my husband and my friend out in California, but that was just decided on last night, and I have a vague idea already of where I might want to try and go with it.

My train of thought has derailed - I got momentarily distracted by the show hubby is watching because he made a comment about it. Not a bad thing - I didn't have much of a train going to begin with. I guess that's all for now? I guess to take something for a mild headache.


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